Currently Reading Shadow (The Trilogy, Book 1) By K. J. Parker see related

~The Little Red Hen~

So, my little charge, Claire, had a school play today. They are a remarkable bunch of 3-7yr olds! They did an excellent job. No one cried or screamed on stage and no one ran away and hid or ran into the audience screaming for their mother! Though one ham closed his eyes tight while he sang, and Claire belted the song out at the top of her lungs! They were so adorable!! I can't even remember a play I was in in elementary school running so smoothly!!

Currently Playing Ringleader By DJ Maj see related

~Time~

Wow!! It has been a long time since I wrote in here. Sorry everybody.

~Updates~

The twins are now 9 months old. Gavin is crawling all over the place and getting into everything and Luke is chillin' out playing with toys (he has no interest in crawling). They are both eating mushy food and slowly moving on to Cheerios!   They have their own nanny now too (their second one) her name is Amy and she rocks!! she is just so awesome I love her to death!! Claire is in school from 8-3 and is enjoying every moment of it and I her nanny am enjoying having my days off.

~Thanksgiving~

So, how was your Thanksgiving? I spent mine at my Aunt Peggy's house, we all had a blast. I actually contributaed to the meal for a change I made a pie and brought rolls. Yea!! I slept on an airmatress with my sister and for the second night in a row I ended up on the floor..the matress had a hole in it! So I moved to the tiny couch and my Aunt says (when I woke up) "Why didn't you kick Katrina (my little sis) off the bed and make her sleep on the tiny couch?" so I answer "Becuase I figured my weight would only countinue to push me to the floor while she--weighing less than 100lbs--would stay afloat." *sigh* some people's kids just cannot think logically!

~Grandma~

My poor Grandmother is crazy...well she has alzheimers which is pretty much the same. My Dad nearly cried while we were visiting her on Thanksgiving because she is just not there any more. She speaks but no words are coming out, just constants and vowels strung together but she thinks she's saying stuff, but she's not and she expects you to respond but how can you respond to something you haven't heard? I told my Dad to just mimic whatever facial expression she has, when she laughs you laugh, when she is outraged you be outraged.   The other thing she is doing now is feeding this basket of stuffed puppies she has. Yes feeding, as in she takes food from her meals back to her room to put on the puppies noses. The puppies all have dirty noses, with caked on food. She's so cute with them, I couldn't help being excited with her, it was sort of like playing with a four year old. She got so happy when she was telling me about how one of them was starting to walk and how another was so sweet how it just sat in it's basket "just looking and looking all day." how can you not love that? It is so hard to see a loved one go through that though, I felt bad for my Dad (it's his mom) he was taking it hard. I just looked at her and I was trying to remember what she was like before and I was thinking how much she would hate it if she could see herself.

~Birthday~

On to happier things.... It was my birthday on Friday.. I'm 25.
I know I'm not old and I don't really feel old I am just aware of the fact that 1/4 of my life (or more) has passed me by. It's a hard thing to get a grip on. I know I'm still young and I have my life ahead of me, but it's almost like my life has been decided for me, or it feels that way. I know it's not really, but I don't know.......I'm going through some stuff too so that doesn't help a lot....I was going to talk of happy things.....

For my birthday I got a PS2 and The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King game to play from my brother. Yes, my little brother bought me a PS2!! He's cool, I guess he figrued since I got him his he ought to get me mine...lol...my 'rents got me a new comforter for my bed at home, some pillows, a tripod for my camera, some scrapbooking stuff, and a sticker maker (for my scrapbookings stuff). My best friends got me a card game, journal, and smelly girly stuff that is my fave scent (Lavendar) very nice. My sister got me a dolphin windchime and a dolphin rubber toy thing. My best friend's sisters got me a bead necklace (she made it herself) and some key rings. Oh and that's not all!! I got to go to Chuck E Cheese and we had cake and pizza there and played games. Then my cousins came over to spend the night and we played Scrabble and by some miracle I won (which never happens). And on Saturday (when I had my party) both of my best friends showed up and Ben (my brother) said I was good at playing the new game he bought me and I was positively glowing all day!!  It was great...wish you had been there!

~Babies~

Ahh, they sleep and so I can come here and write. The twins seem to hate sleep recently. Today though it caught up with them and they are zonked out! Praise God!!

~Crash~

Today we got in a car crash (the twins and I) we were rear ended at a yield sign in a rotary. She had thought I was gone, since I had moved like I was going to go. But then a truck got in my way and I couldn't see the rotary traffic any more so I stopped, but she didn't. I have the imprint of her license plate on my car, kind of funny I think. No real damage to the cars or occupants. Thank the Lord!

~New House~

Praise God!! My parents have a new house and it is perfect. It is as if God looked at the lists my family made of what they wanted and just went down the list and checked things off. God is so awesome! My family has been waiting for this house for the better part of a year and then POW out of no where here it is. Just goes to show you that God's plans are perfect even if they seem crazy and confusing!!

~Girlifying~ (second installment)

The Girlifying continues. I bought PINK!! A pink shirt. My family is dazed and perplexed. Today I bought perfume for the first time. Smells sort of citris like but it's cool. This past week-end my cousin said to my mom: "When did Delia turn into a girl? She's wearing make-up, buying purses, and wearing pink!" It's like the more God cleans up the inside the more free I feel to be me, and me is a girl evidently. Who would have thought?!?

~Nieman's~

My cousin Austin has RTS http://www.rubinstein-taybi.org/our/Austin/ which is a developmental disorder that effects everything about him. His growth is stunted plus his mobility growth is stunted. He might not walk until three or four and potty train at like six. He's fairly non-verbal right now, but he makes a lot of noise when he wants something. He's learning American Sign language and it is just so cool to watch him. His mom, Michelle, is so awesome with him. She's a single mom at the moment because her hubby, Ben, is in Iraq keeping our country safe.

~The Notebook~

I saw 'The Notebook' last night with my friend Nici (sounds like Nicki) and the main characters reminded me of my grandparents. I missed my grandfather then (he died in Sept 03) and my grandmother before she got alzhemiers. It's true you never know what you got until it is gone.I am thankful though that I got to spend as much time with them as I did. I have a lot of cool memories of them. We used to go camping, just the three of us, they treated me like an adult for as long as I can remember. I felt like one of them not like a child tagging along. Grandparents are great, everyone should have some. 
                                    Which makes me remember that the kiddo's I care for don't have that. They don't have grandparents or cousins really. No extended family. All they have is each other. It is so unfair I think. I really hope and pray that some family somewhere takes them under their wing and shows them cousins and aunts and uncles and grandparents and adpots them into their family. Some days I wish that they were mine, they'd have a better life. But as I am unwed and with out a place to live that would be hard to work out, I'm sure God has a plan.

Well, it certainly has been awhile hasn't it? Sorry for the bout of silence there, got busy with that pesky thing called "life", but in my case it is also called "Luke and Gavin" (the 3month old twins I nanny), they haven't been giving me any time to sit and think.

~Graves~

This past week-end was Memorial week-end so my best friend (Amy) and I went to visit our grandfather's grave sites. She planted some purple pansies at her grandfathers site and I scattered some birdseed at mine. Death is something new to me. I haven't had someone I was close to die until my Grandpa last September. I don't think it has really hit home that he's gone. Seeing his gravestone for the first time certainly helped, but I don't feel as sad as I think I should, I don't miss him the way I think I should. Yes, I cried and yelled at God and all that before and shortly after he died, but....I don't know.

~Writing~

I have this story idea that is running through my head and I'm having difficulties working it all out. I've been working on the concept for the better part of a year which is amazing all in it's self, usually I write first think later, but not this one. This one might be "The One" so I'm taking it slow and figuring stuff out first. I'm going to work on it a bit this week-end, I'm hoping to post a little something later next week.

~Money~

I did it again. Spent more than I had, but this time on purpose. I had to fix my car to inspect it in Mass (I'm finally legal in this state, no longer a Maine resident ) and it came to $650 and I had only saved $600 which I had spent most of on registration, insurance, and license ($90 to get a license that's just outrageous!!!) so I had to ask for my check early from the boss. I'm still in the hole (after taking out my tithe money) because I bounced a couple of withdrawals (no big surprise there) and now I have to pay fees. I make myself sick when it comes to money. This year is the first year ever that my Dad is going to make more than me and he supports four people!!! What is wrong with me?!?!? The really sad part is that I'm better now than I used to be and still I spend and spend and spend *sigh* thankfully I've got God on my side and He's been helping tremendously! (Thank you Jesus!)

~Favorite Lyrics From Favorite Bands~

Ginny Owens
Beautiful
Bread

Man cannot live
By bread alone,
He needs something stronger
To feed his hungry soul,
So he'll try everything
Under the sun,
But nothing will end his hunger
Nothing but Your love.